Dearest Matthew.

[inanotherlife]

Matthew,

You've given us a massive scare, you're not allowed to do that again. Ever. Am I understood? <3

I don't really know where to start, because you should know what an amazing, brave, strong being you are. You truely are a beautiful soul. However, we wouldn't want you to get big headed now, would we. ;D

You guys have touched a lot of people's lives, and you certainly burst into mine and brought light in the darkest corners of my existance. You showed me how to live again, and how to rebuild my life, you taught me how to love and trust again... You done all that just by being you. So many people go into the music industry and end up being cold, closed off and arrogant, you my friend, are not like that in the slightest.

Yeovil, March '10, I saw you guys for the third time, I arrived outside the venue at 8.30am. I met you all and you showed me more kindness than I think I have ever seen in my life. You talked to us for hours, gave me a hoodie to 'replace' my '07 tour one (thank you, a million times) and promised to see you in Cardiff. Cardiff was brilliant, and I hope you enjoyed the cake I made and the book...
But yeah, what I think I'm trying to say is that you are special. I was never going to do anything with my life, but you inspired me to write again, I wasn't going to get through school, but now I've just finished my first year of college.

I've never felt more alive, more free, than when I am at one of your gigs, or when I am listening to one of your songs... To be honest, I've had to delete the instrumentals from my IPod, because whenever they come on I feel that thrill, and the excitement of the live shows... And then realise I'm half asleep on the bus at 7am, on my way to college!

I really, really hope you get better soon, because nobody deserves to go through what you have, and definately not you.
When I found out I was absolutely horrified with some people's cruelty, but at the same time, Matthew, I was overwhelmed by what you had done. Sure, many people wouldn't of had the guts to do that, just walked on by and hoped for the best, but you didn't. You fight for what you believe in and stand proud. You give me so much hope that this world isn't dead. If only I had a person who tried to stop things that happened between me and my (now) ex. Some people knew, but they didn't do anything, maybe I could of saved three years of hurt. Although, that said, your music helped me by providing an escape. Your words washed over me and gave me the courage to get away, at last. You made me want to be happy again, stop killing myself on the inside and out and learn how to live again.

Love, I owe my life to you four guys, just know that we are ALWAYS here for you. I know you know that, but really.

We love you dearly, you are marvellous. Concentrate on recovering, we're with you every step of the way.

Best wishes, lots of love, Rosheene. xxx

P.S. I can't wait to give that beautiful mask a new home! (;
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